Can You Feel It?

Can you feel that joy in your soul? That joy which is never ending? The hope and light of Christ which is truth? The reassurance that fear and sadness is nothing when you have Him to turn to? Can you feel the peace that He gives? I can.

I've come such a long way in the past two years. I read a talk recently by Elder D. Todd Christofferson about having the gospel of Jesus Christ written on our hearts. I realized while reading this that that is what happened for me.

Two years ago, I let the death of a loved one affect me more than it should of, and instead of turning to the Savior, I wallowed in self-pity and experienced the darkness of Satan's influence in my life. I spent time with people that didn't truly support or understand the gospel, and so I found myself exposed more and more to the things that would bring me down. I wasn't reading the scriptures, I wasn't saying my personal prayers. Though I still appeared active, and said I believed the Church was true, it was only an influence in my life. I did not yet have the gospel written on my heart.

I maintain the thought that without the church, I may have done some even more stupid things than I did, all those years ago. Now, I realize that in the past two years, as I made the choices that would take me out of that dark place, made the effort to be happy and open myself up to the pure love of Christ, I have become stronger than I could have ever been without it. I know that life wont be a bed of roses, but I now know with all my heart and soul that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is TRUE. I cannot deny the mercy and miracle that the last two years have been. I have promised myself and my Father in Heaven that I will never walk away from him. I have seen both sides, and never wish to return to the side which resides the shadow of fear, doubt and sadness. I choose the light. I choose my Savior, Jesus Christ.